Ruin It

I've waited a long time for this life

Just to ruin it, so please don't ruin this for me

Yes to understand this lie

Hell I crossed those t's

I scratched out all these eyes, myself last night

What I promise not to find

So this is what I'm looking like these days

I'm all grown up, so full of hate

But I don't wanna let go of my age

Cause it's the salt, that brings the taste

So where am I to decide that I'm not right?

Cause I might break and I might bend

Your heart strings out of tune again

And I might try to apologize

On a good day

On my best day

If you stick around

Did I stay inside to sterilize this knife?

Am I being to careful?

Does this seem right?

Did I open up the shades to expose the sunny rays?

To show what burned there inside

Take a close look

Hold me right up to the light

Cause I might break and I might bend

Your heart strings out of tune again

And I might try to apologize

On a good day

On my best day

If you stick around

I've waited for so long

(I've waited for so long)

Spread me out, rake me in

This scorched and rocky field

Will camouflage my skin

And I might break and I might bend

Your heart strings out of tune again

And I might try to apologize

On a good day

On my best day

If you stick around [2x]